“Restlessness and discontent are the first necessities of progress.” — Thomas Edison
Once upon a time — not too long ago…
Spring, 2009. It was towards the end of the sixth 12 hour day in a row — I was sitting in my cubicle staring at my monitor. This 70+ hour work week was no different than the many that came before it. Being on salary meant I only got paid for 40 hours, but despite this discrepancy, I wasn’t unhappy.
And I’ll admit it, I was comfortable. I had a routine. Gym, work, gym, sleep. Repeat. As a result of my routine, I was as healthy & as fit as I’d ever been.
And in the midst of the global financial crisis, I was grateful to not only have a job, but very fortunate to actually continue to get paid to be creative for a living. I considered myself to be one of the “lucky ones” and assumed my life, on the whole, was as it should be.
But as I was about to leave work that night, I had the thought: “This isn’t what you’re supposed to be doing”. Whoa — where did that come from?
I responded by doing the most rational thing I could think of — I shrugged it off. But the thought came back the next day…
“This isn’t what you’re supposed to be doing”.
And again the day after that. It was nothing, if not persistent — so I decided to give it some attention. I figured if I did that, then it go away and I could go back to living my “comfortable” life.
Needless to say, that isn’t what happened — because when I started actually thinking about what I was doing, it raised many more questions than it provided answers.
Was I doing what I was supposed to in my life — and what happened to my dreams?
Was sitting behind a monitor so many hours a week really “living” or had I turned into a robot just going through the motions?
Was I really directing my life to where I truly wanted to go or just doing what I thought I was supposed to?
And where exactly was it that I was heading anyway? — and that’s what really scared me.
With those questions in mind I looked into my past, considered my present, and projected into future. And that’s when it dawned on me that I’d been letting my life, dreams, aspirations & opportunities to fulfill my potential pass me by.
And then there was LOVE…
Where was “she” — the missing piece of my puzzle? How come we hadn’t met yet?
Maybe working all those hours behind a computer — in a totally male dominated industry — wasn’t allowing our paths to cross. Sure, I dated — but I didn’t want “a date”, I wanted something much more significant than that — and I hadn’t found it yet — and I wasn’t willing to settle.
I knew what I wanted — it was simple — everything. Chemistry, love, passion, romance, a connection on many levels, and a true partner. How far would I be willing to go to find that? What kind of sacrifices would I be willing to make in order to make myself more visible to my fashionably late female friend?
“If you want your life to be a magnificent story, then begin by realizing that you are the author and everyday you have the opportunity to write a new page.” — Mark Houlahan
I daydreamed about what my life might be like if I “broke away” from what appeared to be a common, well-trodden path in life and instead, made my own. And then I took it a step further — I thought about what I’d have to do or sacrifice to make what I wanted to accomplish happen. Nothing major really. Just comfort, security, and stability — ok, wait! — that’s pretty major!
It scared the hell out of me.
And then a surprising & life altering event occurred…
I did it.
I took a leap of faith — I quit my job, terminated my lease, and sold (or donated) everything that wouldn’t fit in my 4Runner.
And then set off on personal journey of discovery to break away from the life of the robot I’d become. To rediscover my passions. To push myself beyond my comfort zone. To attract the love of my life. And to bring my life back in line with the one I imagined.
This became known as ZDXP.
Needless to say, it didn’t go as planned…
It was the most difficult thing I’d ever done — forcing me to face challenges I never expected — and it completely turned my world on its side.
It changed my life, my relationships, and my view of the world.
Today, the journey I’m on bears little resemblance to my seat-of-my-pants travel days, but I am still taking the path less traveled. One breath, one step, one day at a time.
FIVE REASONS WHY YOU MIGHT BE HERE TODAY…
1. YOU SAW MY NAME ON AN IMAGE
2. I TAKE PICTURES
You can check out my photography in the Art & Photos area of my site here.
Not into boring still photography? Here’s a video (with music)…
Oh, you like videos? Well, you’re in luck! There’s more below.
3. I WRITE STUFF
And some people read them!
One one of my blogs I share life lessons & encouragement.
On the other I write about silly and ridiculous things I think or that happen to me.
4. I MAKE ART & DRAW COMICS
I used to doodle a lot as a kid, but then I learned to rely on a computer to create art. I sometimes pretend I still have drawing skills.
But hey, I’m getting better…maybe.
5. I WAS CHOOSE-YOUR-ADVENTURE-GUY
I spent nearly 2 years criss-crossing the USA on an epic road trip (we’re talking nearly 60,000 miles!) letting people tell me where to go and what to do.
6. OH DANG. I FORGOT ABOUT THE VIDEOS. NOW MY NUMBERS ARE OFF.
So yeah, I’ve made a couple videos!
Here’s a video of some of the places ZDXP has taken me…
And another because you are paying attention! (Woohoo!)
I made some other videos, but they are over here.
I have nothing more to say on this page! EXCEPT: I like the way you read!
Ok — STOP HERE! You can’t go down any farther! You’ll fall off my web page!